Uncertainty

I have always been one who can bounce back after being hit by a tidal wave. I take things as they come and when live throws me lemons, I ask God, should I make lemonade or lemon tea bread?

However, in the span of 10 days, I went through an emotional roller coaster that knocked me down so hard that I couldn't get up. I felt weepy, sad and fearful. I prayed and prayed, yet there was no answer.I asked God, "What is happening to me?"

The hardest knock came after I viewed the video of Police brutality on YouTube. 5-6 policemen beating up one man. Yes, he did commit a horrible crime of rape but does anyone deserve such punishment?

What if it was our son, brother, father, cousin or uncle who was mistakenly apprehended for being in the wrong place at the wrong time? How would we feel if they were beaten up this way?

I fear for my children. I looked at my son when I was watching the video and I cried. What if it was him in the video? I was angry, fearful and I felt helpless.

Reading the papers everyday doesn't boost my confidence in our leadership. In fact, it makes me wonder, what is to become of Malaysia? What is to become of my children's future here?

I love Malaysia. I love being Malaysian but the government is making it harder and harder for me not to encourage my children to go away and never come back.

God's answer came, as always at the the right time. He said, "soar with me and I will lift you up." I understood, my only confidence is in God, in whom I trust and the only being that has my best interest at heart.

So now I say, "Malaysians, pray. Pray like never before because we need to arise and be counted, set apart as people of God."